I wish I had a bottle, maybe I’d find myself at the bottom.
Everything will be better when I can run again, because then I will be better. I’m just absolutely terrified that there’s actually something wrong.
Date someone who would rather watch your favorite movie with you then go to a party on Friday night. Date someone who will share their food with you even though you said you didn’t want any. Date someone who will warm your hands in the winter and kiss your pink nose. Date someone who will text you they love you at 2am and at 9pm. Date someone who will let you change the station in the car when they’re driving. Date someone who can make you smile when you would rather die. Date someone who makes your insides feel like you’ve just downed a bottle of vodka. Date someone who makes you better.
I’m a wreck.
You were supposed to be one of my best friends; at one point I had thought you were the man I was going to marry. Needless to say that ship sailed a long time ago; but, we continued to be friends and you were the one I went to for everything. You have seen me cry. You have broken me. You have made me believe that I was the one in wrong. You have destroyed my trust time and again, just for me to come crawling back, because I cherished our friendship. You were someone I trusted. You were someone who had helped me and I could talk to you about anything. Now, what are you? I don’t even know; you’re not someone I know anymore. You’re a stranger to me.